It was one year ago yesterday I stepped foot into a Church for the very first time in many years.  I had many reasons from hypocrites to will I be ashamed, will I be judged to will the walls fall down!   I KNOW I am not alone.  I had a dear friend so patient ask if I wanted to go with her.  Each time I would say no.  Three years of this :)  ITs actually been over 20 years since I'd stepped foot in a church service.   Crazy right?  Well I believe again I am not alone.  I believe many "fear" but what I have found is an amazing family, a safe place where you are not judged, you are not banished.  You are welcomed even with all your flaws.  And in those confessions healing begins.  
John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
I went from riding in the car and walking in with my friend (security) to going on my own scared but knowing the walls would not come down.  To approaching the alter with my faults to looking forward to each Sunday to learn more and feel the love and presence.  And private counsel with my pastor.
Then I grew even more, understanding that you are NEVER alone and that when I ask I find all that love on any given day.. each day...
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you;  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
The enemy did not want me to step foot in Mission Church that day.  YET I continued to step forward.  AND I will continue to strive forward with my relationship with Jesus.  With each dagger he throws I will wear my shield.  

I cannot explain to those that have never experienced some of what I have in the past year.  There have been several moments unexplainable and causing peace thru prayer.   Trust me, I was one that turned away, oh I believed in God but I did not understand the depth of it nor the need to fulfill your life surrounded with like minded people , I do now.  We don't always get what we think we want or need in our lives direction,  yet I know in my heart and faith,  Gods plan has a purpose.  
Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
I would love to share the joy of the Lord if you would like to take that "first step"... Trust me it truly is amazing...


marie timm
08/05/2014 9:00pm

it is good that you post this wonderful testimony for we "overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony". I pray many will come to know the Savior who already loves them even though they may not realize it yet.

Linda Lynch
08/06/2014 1:18am

Your testimony makes me love you even more. I have loved watching you grow spiritually. You are truly a blessing and inspiration in my life.

Sandra Reed
08/06/2014 6:06am

Beautiful words Deb. Thanks for sharing your experience. I will be sad to move away from this church but have faith that God brought me here for a reason and sends me away to continue his plan. I think I needed to see Bend with new eyes and experience some healing and renewal and trials to be ready for the next step. So glad you are a piece of that!

08/06/2014 1:18pm

Thank you my friends.. There is much more to tell and so much excitement to share in my continued growth. Sandi I am so happy that we could meet again and both of us gain some healing in our friendship. I will surly miss you but know that we will stay in contact and meet again.

10/03/2016 5:31am

You shouldn’t be doing such mistakes because you should be going to the church once in a week. This is the only way that you can remember about the deeds that you have doing in your life.


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